2010 approacheth.

I am excited for New Year's Eve =D

Most sincere apologies, it is somewhere.

Mm!

I think this day happened so I could sleep better. Good night :]


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Personally speaking,

I enjoy having many blog updates to read.

It keeps me content. Bagels fill that time as well. Quite well...

Oh, and -

-.-

Rawr.

Sometimes I think about how kind and angreeable I have been in certain situations, and the thoughts make me fume because somehow in the moment, I always feel fine with it. Then I think logically and for myself afterwards, and I suddenly realize I didn't feel that way.

Kindness gets the best of me sometimes. And it is mostly when I remember "talks" you've tried to have with me. Those were always fun. No. :P

K-Tizz

I don't mind relaxing days, but this one has poked at my brain too much. I think having something to do would have been exciting.

K-Tizz

Why is my phone correcting the word poo?!


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That was a most excellent day, thanks everyone for making it so :).

Sometimes I am unsure about larger gatherings, but that worked out really well, and everyone was included and I think everyone enjoyed themselves... So it worked out to be a success.

Yay!




On another happy note, I'm really glad that you seem better with us, thank-you.

K-Tizz

Sometimes I wonder if my annonymous statements towards people, are identified correctly by the people.

I would not wish for a good friend to take away from one of those something they should not have due to it not being about them...

K-Tizz

• My feelings towards you change frequently due to small things you do, but since yours towards me are somehow, warped as they may seem, nearly always the same, I am happy.
• I can make myself happy if I don't overthink things. I like being here, and there, and with all of you, a lot of people don't care, but I find that a balance in favour of one is somtimes necessary because I care. Very much, mind you!
• So foggy today!
• That famous picture that that man took of Cypress mountain last year became a reality to my eyes today, when I could see the city of Vancouver flooded with clouds and fog whilst I sat in clear unlimited visibility on the mountain, it was spectacular, especially as the Sun set.
• 3 more days :D
• I wonder what's going on inside your head in regards to her - while I know you still have them, do you tell her in the hopes of sparking hers?

K-Tizz

No, I don't think it gets a little f-ing out of hand, I think YOU have gotten out of hand!

So hardeeharhar.

You know what missy? The gifts are exciting, but a conversation with me at this time can be made or broken by choosing or not choosing to say "Merry Christmas". One should not have to prod another in order for them to say it. Other than that, I'm glad you are having a good day.

K-Tizz

Today was a fairly good day.

You confused me a lot, but I suppose it is sorted out, though I dont' know if I'll be able to make a huge difference, since it has just been this week I've been this way o.o


I liked Christmas though, I'm happy, and I love YOU lots!

Hope everyone had a good holiday!

K-Tizz

Merry Christmas to all :) <3

K-Tizz

Today I tried to use the flusher on the toilet to turn it on so I could use it :).


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K-Tizz

Gotta' lurve those dysfunctional family days.
At least it brings me to get that Proud Family "SO, DYSFUNCTIONAL. CAN YOU FEEL IT. LIKE I FEEL IT." song stuck in the noggin...

And uhm - Click? Do you not like her anymore?

K-Tizz

I wish I understood... Hope you're okay.

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So umm.... What? o.o




My mouthhh hurttss, my moutthhh hurttss! (This is not being spoken, it is being sung.)

K-Tizz

Today so far I have wrapped/created more Christmas gifts, I am very excited to give my gifts again this year!:) I am also rather curious as to what YOU and YOU have for me... And YOU (you know) shouldn't worry. Okay?:D I ALSO have discovered that I have three people that I always talk to and I suddenly feel as though I have this comfortable, small circle of people that are always (almost) readily available. Then I have my very close friends I don't see as often, but that's okay.

End of thought process for now.


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K-Tizz

Well, I'm not sure if I have what it takes to trek through the state of mind you have endured so, so many times before. Your thinking leads to so much stress and no rest for you, and when you start to think about things that are not-so-simple, you become trapped in some sort of cycle I think, that you can't escape until SOMETHING happens. Something that leaves you with little choice but to forget the thoughts for a bit. Or at least put them into remission, as I think you usually do... From what I am seeing, you don't simply let things go, in almost any case. You just tuck it away, where you can keep it from harming you until a new situation comes up where you can deal with it in a new light. You don't put yourself in denial very often, I think you're aware of what you're doing when you choose to leave thoughts be for a period of time.
Additionally, I am very glad you realize how unhealthy that time was... When you told me that you could think of two times that were without influence, I knew there was more to be disappointed in than I had first suspected. It was upsetting, but it's over, and you at least don't do it as much... I suppose.
With the situations you find yourself in in regards to liking people, I don't think I ever expect the return of those feelings when they suddenly arise. Again. Some for the second time, some for the third, or beyond; though I only recall one person having more than two or three. She was a doozy, wasn't she? Ha ha.

K-Tizz

At least you can see some silver lining.

Hearing you be optomistic feels rather unusual, but in a good way. I know I can't be there for you the way that they all could, but I will try my hardest. My own parent isn't spontaneous so I can't always offer you a change of environment but I will surely make an attempt. I am not everything... So you haven't lost me. :)





On a side note: Holy poo, hope that THAT pain doesn't return. o.o

K-Tizz

Almost time to leave to the buffet, then off to the streets again. You'd think the big city would offer things to fear, but there's just a lot of people, not necessarily crime.

I saw one police car last night, around 1am this time, and watching it go by the hotel's round-about was rather... Peaceful. The siren offering the only disrupting sound from where I was, and the snow still falling, and the lights all turning off around the area, it was pretty neat to watch from bird's eye view.

On another note.

• What is going to happen with you? Are you turning back? You always deceive me by starting to get over it...
• This won't be as terrible as last time. It isn't the same.
• You are lucky you loved me before those conversations, otherwise I would have been pretty annoyed at you, senor! Jeepers. You also made me laugh, but that is nearly beside the point!
• Thanks for not doing that... Though it wasn't QUITE the choice I imagine you making, you didn't 'feel like it'. :P
• I wish that it hadn't happened, I miss having you around!

K-Tizz

Sometimes I wish the hobbies and styles and things I do and involve myself with remained nearly only mine... It is one selfish aspect of myself I sometimes find hard to let go of. I've become much better with it, though it sometimes strikes me unexpectedly... Then I fight with my mind, thinking of why I deserve to have individuality with these things if I perhaps look like a try-hard attempting to pull something off.

Then I usually settle with: They all enjoy it, and I like it, so maybe I should just calm down.

HOWEVER, copy-catting moustaches is a completely unacceptable act!

K-Tizz

Ha ha ha haha ha, I don't like that you know I watch you, but funny that you knew what I meant, I saw a giant ad while I was walking around here today, ha ha ha ha.


TELL ME.

I know I should have a lot to say, but I'm drawing a blank due to my discontent with this wobbly part of the desk I'm sitting at. The plane ride provided me with perhaps 20 minutes of sleep, though I do not remember it happening, I just know how tired I felt. A few hours of sleep upon arriving at the hotel and we were off for our first day. So many stores, it's like no one really lives around here, they just walk all the time, stop in at a store, get a bite to eat, and keep walking. I wish it could be like that at home, it's exciting! I am sure people become used to it, but there are SO many people walking that there aren't crosswalk buttons, the cross walk changes for a really really long time so that herds of humans can cross, and traffic must stop and wait for them. There are so many people waiting, that sometimes they just jump the crosswalk light and go anyways because they want to get somewhere. There are also a very very large number of one-way streets, it seems weird, because you rarely have to look BOTH ways before crossing the street. It's good exercise, and you feel so at home right away, because everyone is doing just what you're doing - just walking, and trying to get somewhere, or maybe no where, they just want to keep going. We did that a little last night. Today we sat for a long time inside visiting with a family friend, his wife, and their incredibly intelligent and curly-haired daughter, she is 5, and can pull off the attitude of a 16 year-old with some of the looks she manages. Whoa. xD Anywho, just before that, I experienced my first New York bagel, and holy bagel, it was fantastic. I know I could probably make one for myself, but eating it in such a bustling little restaurant made it seem so much more exciting, I LURVED IT. After a good couple hours of visiting, we made our way back to the hotel room for an hour, then left again as it started to become dark outside. We found ourselves some warmer coats and trekked outside as it started to snow harder. The wind picked up as we continued and the flakes fell harder. Everytime we left a building or turned around, it seemed to be covering the ground more and more. Traffic + Close together buildings = Fast-melting snow, so there really isn't a traffic problem, but the wind made walking less convenient. However, I am one of those people that feels excited when they walk through a raging storm or have their umbrella blown out of their hands or are dramatically crashed into by someone. So very exciting... :D We went into a GIANT toy store! The Harry Potter stuff they had was neato, such as the statues of some elements of the books... Very expensive though. Oh, my mother grabbed on to my arm to walk because she felt lonely and I sped up to step over a curb and she did not so she started to fall forward but my manly biceps caught her easily. Only one arm, too! How did the night end... Well, I tried to take as many nice pictures as I could, but bustling people, and the biting snowflakes made that difficult. Do not be discouraged if I return with few photos, it's just difficult to capture everything... We finally made it back to the hotel and snacked on small things for awhile, watched television, and now I am here, looking forward to a breakfast buffet tomorrow morning. I don't want to waste much time sleeping for tomorrow since we have to leave, though that last part may not happen. If the weather continues leaving may be unsuitable, but I think it's going to stop enough for us to leave. Anyways, I'll want to be tired to survive the plane ride home. Or will I? I wish I had more to do on the plane, even though there are movies and what-not to pick from. I don't know what I'll do. It is Winter Break! I can take all the sleeping time I need when I get home... Maybe I won't even sleep. I'll stay up with my mom and wrap Christmas gifts all night.

AHH! I need to find my grandma something for Christmas! I'll take care of these things when I get home. I was planning on making something, actually...
I think you and I should become friends just so that we can follow each other on here annonymously. And no, you should not be ashamed of your 400 post pride. :P

Good night for now.

K-Tizz

• Feeling pretty tired, but not as tired as I'd suspect for about 3 hours of sleep in two days! Go me! New York is exciting stuff, I feel as though I've been here a long time, even though it's only been, wow, 12 hours. Such an early flight arrival.. xD
• *I* read your blogs! And she knows what you think. She reads them all, regardless of whether you want her to, or know if she does... It hurts though, that you are still hurting.
• Ha ha, did you get that from a cell phone ad? :P
• I wish you'd return to the computer so I could have a proper conversation with you, I don't feel like talking to anyone else really at the moment... Seeing as everyone else gave me a sufficient farewell, you were a tad distracted :P.
• Glad we are rolling along B)

K-Tizz

-.- "lawl." = o______<.

• I think you want to be my friend more again, let's keep it that way!
• Looking forward to Christmas gathering...
• Ohh I.. Was so close. Why must you cut me off again?! Just when I feel like I'm at his level. >.>
• I must complete my Spanish project in tomorrow's class. My longer-than-needed story is complete, now I must make my book portion, it should not be too difficult, just do some simple child-like cut-outs and make it look simple in that enjoyably nice kind of way.
• Maybe that was a glimmer of hope, though I really don't want to leave on anything close to that note.
• Sometimes I truly see why "I don't know." was such a frustrating response when I used to say it way too much... :P
• ni(sin0i)=nr(sin0r), L=n/v?, n = c/v.... I hope I shall do well! I'll study more tomorrow in addition to tonight's studying.

K-Tizz

I dislike feeling so tired when I - possibly - won't be able to visit with you again for awhile.

K-Tizz

Maybe I'm angry at me.


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K-Tizz

I frustrate myself.

K-Tizz

Marijuana Side Effects

Marijuana side effects come from smoking or consuming the drug and marijuana side effects influence the mind and body of the user. Marijuana side effects can be as seemingly innocent as an increased appetite to as life threatening as lung cancer. Increased likelihood for accidents is also one of the marijuana side effects. Studies show that 6 to 11 percent of fatal accidents are contributed to by marijuana side effects. Other external marijuana side effects include legal problems, work and financial problems and troubles at home.

Marijuana is most often smoked but can be eaten or steeped in tea to drink. Most over-doses occur actually when the drug is eaten because it is easier to consume a large dose all at once. Marijuana side effects from an overdose include toxic psychosis including hallucinations, delusions and a loss of self-identification. When smoked, marijuana is rolled up into a cigarette called a joint or smoked in a pipe or water pipe called a bong. Marijuana has many street names like pot, hash, chronic and there are many paraphernalia available to smoke it.

Over 11 million people smoked marijuana last month. Many may not have severe marijuana side effects from taking the drug but many people will. Marijuana side effects include physical problems like breathing difficulties and deteriorating physical abilities. Despite a popular belief, marijuana side effects speed up the heart, blood and breathing rate. The body is taxed more and this speeds up the aging process just like methamphetamines do. The marijuana side effects from this extra exertion on the body include a higher risk for lung cancer, heart attacks and strokes.

Marijuana side effects also wreak havoc on the brain when the drug is used habitually. The natural chemical balance of the brain is disrupted affecting the pleasure centers and regulatory systems. The ability to learn, remember and adapt quickly to changes is impaired by marijuana use. Depression often occurs with marijuana usage, which feeds into the cycle of more drug use to treat the pain created by drug use. This cycle of addiction is very powerful and users soon find that they cannot stop using the drug even if they want to.

Marijuana addiction is a progressive disease and marijuana side effects include withdrawal and obsessive thought with the drug when it is not made available. Addiction is identified as a compulsive, uncontrollable craving for the drug even with pending negative consequences. Often users will attempt to stop smoking marijuana for an important event such as a job interview or court hearing and find themselves using very close or just before the event. This act goes beyond a flexing of willpower. This describes being enveloped by a disease that has taken control and needs to be treated.

K-Tizz

Snowboarding was fun, but a bit too icy for maximum enjoyment capacity. I suffer from the aftermath with a sore neck from one fall, and you unfortunately suffer other unfortunaties.
A nice visit made things better though, it's too bad work will now deminish that goodness.
I work at 12:30-2:00 today, then a movie at 3:25 with fatha' will complete my afternoon before dinner time...


On another note, I don't know what to do with you. I can't stay angry at you because you're far too important, but at the same time you keep tarnishing my safe circle of people who are clean and remain the minority by not doing anything illegal. I clearly can't change your mind either, so that's just too bad for me, isn't it?

Anyways, I think I'm going through that "never-able-to-feel-truly-rested" phase of myself again... Which is quite unfortunate, because I waited all week to be able to sleep for more than 7 1/2 hours and when I finally got to sleep 10 I still felt very little was accomplished, even after an hour of being awake. Ughhh. My eyes and head refuse to let go of discomfort and sleep. I shake my fist at thee both!

K-Tizz

Ohh how those songs surface feelings.

K-Tizz

I've discovered I am sometimes content NOT doing that. It pleases me. =o



I also want popcorn, chocolate, and something else. But only in a mental way...

What do I really want to eat? Perhaps nothing.

K-Tizz

Oh, ha ha.

K-Tizz

Just testing this out. Seems to be in working order.


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K-Tizz

Well! That's pretty unfortunate, isn't it?

Looks like she held you off for just long enough, did you really just "lose your feelings" or did you MISS your old feelings? The ones that led you to things that bring you lots of joy and shed you of all of your stress?

Hope you're content, because I'm not.

K-Tizz

I feel like you broke up with a part of me.

That is a slightly amusing thought, but was meant in a serious way. Althought, I must respect that it was entirely your feelings the movement was based on... I am just disappointed that it came to this. Your mind confuses me, child.

I don't need to explain who I talk about. These are my thoughts for dumping.

Please do what you know is right, because right now, you know it's wrong, you know you are choosing the wrong path by leaving the choice to someone who wants anything BUT to go down that path.

Holy slow weekness, Dios.

\I am dumbfounded by the fact that it is not the weekend yet. I WILL sleep at a decent time tonight. Though it is a bit boring to go to bed early sometimes I find, it always makes me feel accomplished.

I think I have been better this week.

WOO. I will get all of my minutes in and more on Saturday while we go SNOWBOARDING! I think it is a nice belated celebration of number 21. Hope you feel happier, though!

Yuck. Dog slobber is a downer.

Ha ha.

I'm amused by your knowing.

It's fine. I'm not being pushed away.

Arrr.

That's unfortunate, but as happy as I was, something did feel unsettled. I'm sorry.

Snowboarding finally gets to happen on Saturday! I look forward to this.

Hm.

Turned my stomach a bit. o.O

I tried to say sorry for seeming rude that night, but you left, so I don't know if you got that or not. I am obviously unaware of what a terrible person I am. Thank-you.
I have been trying to be patient, because I already told you I don't mean to be, or maybe I said that when you left as well. Either way, please do try to be aware that I'm trying. Certain things frustrate me at certain times, maybe it seemed like I was doing it all the time, but it's not that I don't want to be friends, and I want to be able to defend myself but it doesn't seem I can, since I don't know what I've done and maybe I have done stuff... But sorry? I don't know if my stomach turned in anguish or sadness, perhaps it was both. But I don't like it either way, please don't say these things about me o.o

Hm, indeed.

You quite successfully confused me today... Hope everything is okay? :S

My day was fairly enjoyable. A less-than-productive Physics class :(, but Yearbook was spent fairly well, despite a few people that didn't feel entirely to-the-grindstone. I was content working with SB, it was a nice change, and having mister come over to see me periodically was a nice reminder that I wasn't being replaced by new circumstances today.
I should not feel so resentful towards you, but my pride was taken down a step by having another person to do my job. Oh well, the year will end, and then I can wait for it to begin again next year. I'm not sure what my problem is, or what yours was? o.o
A warning to Restaurant City'ers - the appearance of high-priced items is malfunctioning, and some things appear less expensive than they are. The pinball machine is not 2,000 coins, it is 12,000. Do not make my mistake.
Ohhh look at me, I'm bolding it up.
I think you are good people, I hope that your habits rub off easily.

(,,,)

People are silly.

Loop!

• I have a large amount of tiredness.
• Me encanta mi dulce :)
• I am generally content with life.
• Once, I came to this conclusion, but today I rediscovered, that I really like things.
• YOU ROCK.

K-Tizz

- A book, finally.
- Geek Squad should lay off the computers for a moment and pick up the phone. Then go back to their computers and let me know what's happening with mine. Please. :)
- I'm happy for you, and I'm glad to have not been left in the dust.
- Please don't freak out at me again. :P
- I know it is so so simple, and I should not be annoyed, however: I. Need. Space. And if you are going to be around me because we are working on something together, or we sit together, go ahead, I enjoy your company a lot. If you should be doing something, or perhaps spending time with your other friend, please try to.
- I feel bad for the above point, because typing it out makes it seem so illogical, but laziness turns me off soooo easily :)
- The weeks are passing quickly. It's very strange. Grade 11 has been not a blur, but seems to have been compressed into what feels like a month's time, not three going on four. Winter break will cut out almost a month and then we have only a few weeks before we reach the end of our first semester. I'll miss my classes and I'll miss the time I can no longer enjoy of a good school year.
- Sister = completely unpredictable.
- I won't turn on you, everyone who cares about you and has for awhile won't. People who haven't been through things we have will. I honestly don't care about it. No, it's not that impressive on either part, but I don't care.

Moo sauce.

• I am trying to help. There are still some things that you need to work on in order for me to be without this annoyance I sometimes gain, but I am fine.
• On a different note, WHEW, no intense day-long tummy pain! That was some intense hurting when I woke up.
• La la la la la la BAGELS. BAGELS.
• Christmas break is getting kind of close, and so is New York =O
• It's time to go to school.

Whyyyy?

I don't like arguing with you, why do you always put up a fight when I'm not even attacking you?


Also, I already miss you :( I shall see you soon though :)