PS.

The blog remains a sanctuary.

Nah.

I was just in a weird mood when I wrote that stuff. I was extremely tired, too.

WOOOOOOOOO! Yay for Canada's 14 gold medals! :) I am proud of our new record-setting Olympic Games. It was also quite exciting to actually BE there and see the people react. I was cheered for when I hung my Canadian bandana out the window XD. Honking galore, I definately enjoyed it. Happy honking beats annoyed regular honking.

Don't be annoyed, it's just been inconvenient. You should be sad and excited for the future instead of annoyed and grumbly about it. xP

Cough.

Tomorrow I'll see Vancouver in the Olympic storm for the first time first-hand. Hopefully it shall be fun amd I won't be coughing. I need sleep. I'm feeling unbalanced but I think it's in a good way. Sad but only because all of the good pushed that emotion to the front of my brain. I think.
There's probably some real sad there, too. You didn't used to have all of that stuff inside you. Anddddd I like the movie Sweet Home Alabama!:) It is a sweet little time.
That information is definately not enjoyable. She doesn't want to know that. It will only further cause pain because she will care but not in a way that will make her stop caring altogether. I wish something would just work out in her favour. Please? I do love her.

11 days! Strange how Time randomly rears its head.


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RE:

You have. I really hope. Someone? Anything but everything... But all the same something - I'll try.

Raaaaaaawr.

I wonder what you're doing... If you feel any sense of loss when you consider me.

On a brighter note - woo for you! I am glad you've found things that intrigue you and that you can get excited about.

Ohh photos, I would enjoy to take some interesting ones right about now... I crave the excitement of it! The shutter and the nice lighting and then the reviewing of a photo that makes me go: WOO!

A sign? :P

Whew, feeling a bit confused at the moment. I am alright though. I feel kind of thrown off by a few things at the moment. Not because they are weird though which is the strange part!

I wish I could cast some joy because while one seems to gain the others seem to decline and rise frequently. Often times it is simply all down... Which I don't enjoy.

Sometimes I desire to feel refreshed in terms of environment and people. Even if just for one set period of time. Then I feel fine. My mind frame determines that usually. Maybe it's because... No, not the needing thing. I don't think that always applies. Who knows?

Good night, all.


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Vdlwlwhx slauwp

Do what you want. I'm incredibly lost on how to feel so you might as well not "hide" seeing as I'm not angry. It's some other weird feeling. Go ahead, you obviously know who you are.


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Argh.

Isn't it frustrating when the need to talk conflicts with the privacy of the subject matter? >.>


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Ughhh.

I think it's time for another counselor's appointment...

...

Huh.

Wow.


On another note, I am happy with Math :D.
Still feeling ickish though so I'm not out of the woods yet.


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-.-

I suppose it won't be me breaking the news. Good try!



Down with this sickness... HUZZAH!


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Well.

That's just pretty darn annoying.

La!

I was very tired during the last part of today, however the day was not too bad.

My stress is still going on regarding Yearbook... I feel it will be possible that we'll get enough done to keep our deadlines decent... *pulls out hat of hopefulness*

The dance is tomorrow night! I don't think a lot of people I know are going to it but I am still looking forward to going. I will be able to to take lots of interesting pictures and hopefully have a few nice dances. Too bad I can't dance to anything with any sort of style :).



Buck up it'll be alroight.

Life In Advance

A daunting task that is slowly coming together. I think I will be successful in completing it before I go to work. It is proving difficult to come up with new ideas for each decade but I am almost there!

Where are my friends and their blogs?!

I would enjoy some bed time reading material, people.

Oh. Yes...

You fancy me don't you?o.o


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I like that.

I'm also fluent in Sarcasm.

I do not believe you are unintelligent.

Random mornings, but I think they are justifiable.

I'll be a bit relieved when the University Challenge is over, but I have enjoyed it. If I was on my own, a few things would definately be completed already... The teamwork is handy, we have all done well on it. However, I do believe we need to agree on some basic things that will add to the overall effect of the project.

Huzzah! Life In Advance is finally coming along, though it makes me question how some people go through their entire lives living one career path. I think I could do it, because my optimum goal is to have two, both very different and one with a lot of options and chances to expand. Truly, though the one seems simple, I can imagine myself being really happy doing it, and I think the combination of the two would be financially and mentally beneficial. I am excited just thinking about it.

I hope for the best for you, not in the far future, but I do hope that you pull out the big guns so that you can make your point and not be left trodden on every time. You may not care about the one aspect - but not caring about that is leaving the other aspect which you care most about unattended. I do think you're tending to it now, though... Which is good.

Ummmm, I'm kind of uncomfortable. Something seems off to me and it causes actual fear in me to think about it. You constantly say it's nothing, but why can I not seem to shake this weird feeling I have been getting from you? Do I just need to spend more time with you? Is there some sort of sixth-sense vibe I'm receiving? What is it?! It is incredibly frustrating trying to sort out because I love you XD.

Onnnnnlllllllllllyyyyyyyy YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! -music note-

Dagnabbit.

I don't like this.

The sadness has struck again. Why, though?


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Golly, that's uncomfortable.

Alongside my new contentedness, I find every morning this week to be a huge challenge to wake up to. I feel immediately frustrated and angry until I've exited my bed and I fo sho don't like it, dawg.


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Ragh.

A rising contentment has left me with few totally content people around me. Poop!


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La la la la laaa.

A good visit today, that was enjoyable! Dog...


I feel confident about my classes and what I will do after high school. No, I am not choosing the highest-paying possible career path, but I definately think I could enjoy it almost every day I go. And it would leave me the summer to enjoy myself and work on photography.

Harley is healing up as well, yay for him being allowed to walk around again!
(RIP Cooper, we miss you lots!)

I am in a generally content state of mind with myself, though I am sad for the unhappiness settling in the minds of those that I care about.

I like when I think I called someone but I only listened to an empty screen for a full minute.

I have been having a good time watching the Olympics. Now, for a "You!" note.

- You (many): I apologize, today was not a good day for me, I woke up really impatient and stressed out and it didn't go away for the entire day.
- You: Well, I'm not sure what to say. I'm sorry it happened. And I am sorry for the more terrible thing ultimately...
- You: Your puppy dirtied my skirt! But I like her still XD.
- You: I'm not sure how to feel in regards to that stuff, but everything else seems pretty good.


Mr. Ross made me feel downer today regarding the whole 2 years only of being 'in love' fact - but I think that the choice to stay with someone because you enjoy their company and you love who they are as a person is something that can stick with you forever, so it is not impossible to stay in love. The feeling of passionate love just wanes.

Welllllll,

I'm not sure what to predict the next line of events will be, if any.


On another note - that was a weirdly long-feeling weekend, is it actually time for school again?

Another overcast day.

Happy Valentine's Day. To everyone, friends and family and pets. Even to those of you who are righteous. Enjoy the day

My state of mind has changed in regards to that. I'm sure it will change back, but for now it must be respected and I should not be pushed.

Suddenly coming back? Hmm!

I am excited to go to the dance. I hope it doesn't turn into a whine-fear by you, though. I'm kind of nervous to go with you. >.>

The Grade Twelve challenge was really fun and I liked it lots XD. It was a good opportunity which if presented with a similar one will inspire me to be part of it.


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Here to stay?

The Internet has returned in working condition to my home!

I was a bit confused on which connection to use, but once I connected to the correct one and Jemmy did some fixing we were good to go. :)

Things are all fairly happy except: Your attitude towards this subject is painful. Your future lies with these choices to some extent, and I know you will care more when it comes to it later because you'll have more choices, but you seriously need to think about how maybe a couple of difficult choices that will last a few months will result in years of doing something you truly enjoy.
This whole situation is ruining the whole extreme happy thing for me. So thank-you. *thumbs up* :)

Hum!

I have to wonder what has been going on. I've lost hat used to be my most strong connection. Maybe the phrase regarding some people walk into your life for a moment or short while or forever leaves you in the middle position. Which is sad, maybe things will turn around one day. The old days are missed, though.
Things seem to have improved. One day isn't enough to go on, but I do believe the small improvement will lead to bigger ones, ones which will make the near and perhaps far future better.
Oh dear, did I allow myself to fall into that typical little pit? I wonder. I don't think it's all too true anyhow, I seek simpler things now.
I am pumped for Friday, seeing Sam (Shelby too?), Valentine's Day (+ movie?:D), finishing more Yearbook, picking my courses, and the dance because the dress Daddy picked out for me in Mexico es muy bueno. :)
All-in-all, I am a content person right now. My camera is keeping me happy too. I must read the manual amd become more knowledgeable though. I want to understand and know most of its abilities some time.


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Rah,

I don't like the moments when I feel as though everything tears me in different directions.


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Hello, hello, hello!

I still have no Internet at home in Surrey, so in Chilliwack I shall post again... Which is what I am doing now. I have had a good weekend thus far =D. Photographs tonight were neato, silhouettes are happy-making. I wish those fellows had returned though... That would have made for a fancy photograph.

Uhhhmmmm, that was a bit uncalled for ;), but oh well, it is to be expected sometimes... Sometimes I just desire a bit more tolerance. I didn't do anything... o.o

LA LA LA LA LA LA LA! Hope all is well in your mind, I think things are working out. Holy poo, only four days. I'm glad you said what you said, 'twas nice of you, bold and very worth saying. I wonder if you'd truly stick by it.





... Mmm, rooooahh. xD/>.o

Ah!

I don't know if you meant *I* slipped a comment, but I have faith in you! I know you could easily do it if you decided: Okay, I hve a goal, LET'S DO THIS. AHHHHH. Perhaps without the battle cry? No. With the battle cry... You are a strong-headed person, and if you focused you could do this happily. I think you'd actually enjoy challenging yourself to achieve something. Especially because you are looking forward to independence. :)


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Rooooo

I know.

On another note - Whoa. How interesting...

And um - I cannot do that.


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Internet - nooope xD

It only works every minute for about five seconds, so I declare that the Internet in my home is currently NOT working correctly. I'm at my grandma's right now trying to print something off for school, but that doesn't seem to be working out too well either. Rahhhh! X)