You are being strangely... Good.

Don't know how I feel about it!

I won't hold my breath for that offer anymore.

Also, please, please, please, don't be so rude just because you don't like something. I accept that people have opinions and deserve to express them, but sometimes one must be sympathetic to the feelings of people they care about.

Countdown until schedule breathing room: 42

I am excited for your birthday, WOOOO!

I love my friendiddlies.

My friendships with my very close friends are all very different from one another in the things we do and say with each other. One is not any less of a friend to me just because one does not take part in some of these particular activities and conversations.

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Right-o.

I am going to cleanse myself of unnecessary frustrations and complaints if at all possible. Certain things should stop seeming annoying after a certain amount of time.

On another note, I suppose it is good that I stopped myself from indulging in that curiosity. It would be causing problems at the moment. Still, I find it unfortunate to witness as a possibility. Luckily all is good in the hood with us, though!

Personally I believe that you are pleased with her new freedom.

Perhaps your lack of return-conversation is due in part to your inability to describe yourself. Maybe knowing yourself better would bring that capability back.

Ai ai ai.

Sometimes I wonder what gets you pumped.

Sorry to be the bearer of unpleasant news.

Old reminders make me realize why I tend to always slide back a little.

I do love you, don't worry about that.

I'm so back and forth with all of my thoughts. Oh well. Too un-awake to contemplate or elaborate.

Our relationship is so surreal sometimes. xD

I guess it's not okay when I slip into one bad mood.

Scratch that last one.

- On another note, youuu are so difficult to communicate with. Seeing you in person is far more stress-free.

- And you are rumored to act off, perhaps envious, when she discusses other people? Huh.

- You should really take that necklace off if you haven't already! Keep it if you wish, but wearing it must be like hanging on.

Are you really just going to start offering what could have been hope now? Sigh. :P

I feel content in knowing I no longer feel utterly lost if some fellow does not share mutual interest. Probably considering I lack motivation to commit at the moment.


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That was an experience. Definitely will make me more cautious, perhaps increase my sense of fear as well.

I want to be your friend eventually but I do not want to feel threatened by your feelings. Currently, situations remain tense and/or awkward due to the fact that you have left me feeling uncomfortable with your feelings about the situation. Having your heart hurt because of me makes being with you (just in company) difficult to bear.

I like my friends.

I want to be with someone, but at the same time I don't more than I do. I would rather just date and maintain my freedom. This year should be an exciting one.

Okay, first day was successful by means of not having to deal with any discomfort. Let us see what real classroom time brings us, shall we? I am excited for this year. I am excited for new people and opportunities! I am excited to finish my Grad Transitions Plan and not have to worry about any of it anymore. I am excited to keep earning money. I am excited to run the Yearbook room (hopefully) and to be the Public Relations Director. I am excited to make my friendships even better and to rock this entire year.

And now a hummingbird on the first day of school? After I did not see one at my house all summer? IS THIS A SIGN OF SOME SORT?

I don't like Nicola's last post.

I am looking forward to tomorrow. I'm starting to feel a bit more ready for this year, even if it is surreal.

I'm worried about you.

Please try to figure this out so that you don't push the people away who you really should be keeping close. We can't be friends until you let up.

... Please, accept what is.

It is flattering to a point that someone could care that much about me. However, you have convinced yourself that you made the absolute biggest mistake of your life and in doing so, you let go of your ONLY true love. I am not the only girl out there that is worth being with! Sure, I am the only person that you let in, really. I made you a 'better person' by bringing you out of your shell. Then with this new freedom to be social you let in a handful of other girls and no guys. XD Annoying semester that was. Now that you made a decision based on what you felt I wanted and provoked by your parents. You let them tell you what to do, it's not my fault. I would have done it myself sooner or later. PLEASE, just accept that you haven't ruined your chances for happiness and move on from this situation. Perhaps there will always be a piece of you that loves me, but it will be a tiny one if you can healthily move. on. It hurts me that you hurt, and you were my first real love, but I'm happy now. Without you. I'm not holding your hand anymore, lean on your friends and talk about something other than me so that you don't feel like it absorbs your mind. Don't make this last year a difficult one for me, or yourself, I already have a lot on my plate.

I feel as though the dream about the hummingbirds was significant. It felt so important. Why?

Ahhh

I find it so difficult to find a way to express disappointment and acceptance to someone who has disappointed me. I just try not to.


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Silly boys.

I have not had a Shelby-Sam visit in some time.

• I have been approved, thus this will not work in your favour.
• Actually, happiness is important, I just feel that it should not be jumped upon.
• Wow, it happened.. I finally became absolutely fed up and no longer feel patience with you.
• I'm very much hoping that school will be smooth. I don't know what your classes are...

Things I now enjoy that I didn't know about before from Starbucks:

Soy Chai Tea Frappuccino, Green Tea Frappuccino, Passion Iced Tea Lemonade, Apple Spice something or other like that.

The first one is lovely.

Yeah, they do. XD

TRA LA LA.

I enjoy thinking that tonight shall be another fun one!

Sam, I miss you... D:

Thank-you for telling me. I'm glad you have someone you can talk to now. :)

• I keep wondering if this is going to be problematic in everyone having fun together.
• Huzzah for a non-date movie outing, felt good, especially since I did not see problem child there.
• This year is going to be a good one. It feels like it. If it is not, I will be severely disappointed.
• Oh, and this year, I will be single at the beginning of school for the first time in two years. :O I don't think everyone is even aware yet that we broke up. xD
• I found the poetry anthology you wrote me and it made me sad, I miss being your friend at that time.

Mmm.. -.-