I would benefit from a weekend of spa treatment, I think.

I am not sure that this is over yet and I no longer know how I feel..>.>

You are invited into my dreams whenever you please!

I no longer understand my mind's reasoning for things. -.-

I am melodramatic, whew :)

I just feel sad. I am being melodramatic and I let my feelings get the better of me and you only want to be friends and you still have a mushy confused heart and you can't imagine ever dating again. I want to be normal with you like we were before but physical contact makes me feel like you'll be able to sense my feelings so I'm just frustrated. I'll be your friend and I'll support you through this and I'll hope that you won't be numb forever because you're really great and I want to keep you in my life. You are a great addition to my small
Collection of really great friends. One day I will awkwardly inform you that I love you as a friend like I eventually did with Samantha and Shelby. I care about you and that's why I'm rambling and if you could be less attractive and intelligent I'd find this a lot simpler, thank-you. I feel privileged to have you be find of me and unfortunate to have let things happen this soon even though I wanted them to. We are really in sync with one another and even if you can't see it I think we would be good eventually. Maybe we will. I'll try to ignore that belief for now.

This is a bit too difficult.

Dagnabbit. This is why I don't want to bother any time soon. Lack of self confidence = this.