an uppercase outlook,

I'm much happier but it still pains me to think about. I am happy, just really wishing I could get that little bonus. I'll keep working on me, though, before I work on other people and me. And you, please, I care about you a lot and I hope this is just a phase because nothing can happen. I hate saying that because it seems reasonable from my perspective but then, that could be YOUR perspective as well. I just have this inkling that it isn't entirely your perspective. Maybe I'm wrong. But I wasn't before.