Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrraaahhhhhh!!!!

Was that just a one day thing? Oh well. It doesn't matter. Let it go, Katie. He might not want anything anymore.

I have recently developed a much more intense sense of appreciation for you two. I do not know where it came from, but I am happy that I love my two best friends extra dearly as of late!

My mom being sad so much makes it seem like she doesn't want to talk to me ever, but I can forgive her even if it makes me kind of upset.

There's this little issue I have, where I really really care about you, but I am too scared of doing anything so I'll continue making myself silently suffer through it while toying with the idea of moving on and confusing myself further. I do not know what to do because I no longer know what you are thinking - at least in regards to me. I'm so terrified of commitment, I do not know if that means I need to push past it or if I need to acknowledge it and wait until the fear subsides. I think if I waited and it actually subsided then I'd realize there was a good reason for it going away.. But what if it doesn't. I like you a lot. Even if you're really weird and irksome a lot of the time. It's only a matter of time before I tell you I love you completely by accident and then crumple into an awkward heap. XD

Oh my gosh. I don't know what to do if you try to make a move again. Well really, I do know what to do, it is to explain to you what I am feeling. Easier said than done... Not really. I need to just do it... I love you, butttt I just can't push past this barrier I've put up against you.

I would benefit from a weekend of spa treatment, I think.

I am not sure that this is over yet and I no longer know how I feel..>.>

You are invited into my dreams whenever you please!

I no longer understand my mind's reasoning for things. -.-

I am melodramatic, whew :)

I just feel sad. I am being melodramatic and I let my feelings get the better of me and you only want to be friends and you still have a mushy confused heart and you can't imagine ever dating again. I want to be normal with you like we were before but physical contact makes me feel like you'll be able to sense my feelings so I'm just frustrated. I'll be your friend and I'll support you through this and I'll hope that you won't be numb forever because you're really great and I want to keep you in my life. You are a great addition to my small
Collection of really great friends. One day I will awkwardly inform you that I love you as a friend like I eventually did with Samantha and Shelby. I care about you and that's why I'm rambling and if you could be less attractive and intelligent I'd find this a lot simpler, thank-you. I feel privileged to have you be find of me and unfortunate to have let things happen this soon even though I wanted them to. We are really in sync with one another and even if you can't see it I think we would be good eventually. Maybe we will. I'll try to ignore that belief for now.

This is a bit too difficult.

Dagnabbit. This is why I don't want to bother any time soon. Lack of self confidence = this.

I have no right to be annoyed. Why am I.

On another front, I'm feeling like something is wrong.

It is very difficult not to just smother you with non-committed affection. XD

I think of you often, there's just a disconnect right now. I also can't do it all.

You have a way of making me feel kind of crummy occasionally. xD