And now a hummingbird on the first day of school? After I did not see one at my house all summer? IS THIS A SIGN OF SOME SORT?

I don't like Nicola's last post.

I am looking forward to tomorrow. I'm starting to feel a bit more ready for this year, even if it is surreal.

I'm worried about you.

Please try to figure this out so that you don't push the people away who you really should be keeping close. We can't be friends until you let up.

... Please, accept what is.

It is flattering to a point that someone could care that much about me. However, you have convinced yourself that you made the absolute biggest mistake of your life and in doing so, you let go of your ONLY true love. I am not the only girl out there that is worth being with! Sure, I am the only person that you let in, really. I made you a 'better person' by bringing you out of your shell. Then with this new freedom to be social you let in a handful of other girls and no guys. XD Annoying semester that was. Now that you made a decision based on what you felt I wanted and provoked by your parents. You let them tell you what to do, it's not my fault. I would have done it myself sooner or later. PLEASE, just accept that you haven't ruined your chances for happiness and move on from this situation. Perhaps there will always be a piece of you that loves me, but it will be a tiny one if you can healthily move. on. It hurts me that you hurt, and you were my first real love, but I'm happy now. Without you. I'm not holding your hand anymore, lean on your friends and talk about something other than me so that you don't feel like it absorbs your mind. Don't make this last year a difficult one for me, or yourself, I already have a lot on my plate.

I feel as though the dream about the hummingbirds was significant. It felt so important. Why?

Ahhh

I find it so difficult to find a way to express disappointment and acceptance to someone who has disappointed me. I just try not to.


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Silly boys.

I have not had a Shelby-Sam visit in some time.

• I have been approved, thus this will not work in your favour.
• Actually, happiness is important, I just feel that it should not be jumped upon.
• Wow, it happened.. I finally became absolutely fed up and no longer feel patience with you.
• I'm very much hoping that school will be smooth. I don't know what your classes are...

Things I now enjoy that I didn't know about before from Starbucks:

Soy Chai Tea Frappuccino, Green Tea Frappuccino, Passion Iced Tea Lemonade, Apple Spice something or other like that.

The first one is lovely.

Yeah, they do. XD

TRA LA LA.

I enjoy thinking that tonight shall be another fun one!

Sam, I miss you... D:

Thank-you for telling me. I'm glad you have someone you can talk to now. :)

• I keep wondering if this is going to be problematic in everyone having fun together.
• Huzzah for a non-date movie outing, felt good, especially since I did not see problem child there.
• This year is going to be a good one. It feels like it. If it is not, I will be severely disappointed.
• Oh, and this year, I will be single at the beginning of school for the first time in two years. :O I don't think everyone is even aware yet that we broke up. xD
• I found the poetry anthology you wrote me and it made me sad, I miss being your friend at that time.

Mmm.. -.-